Shelley Lubben is a former porn actress who doesn't want you to believe the lie of porn anymore. She dedicated this article to all the porn actresses who caught HIV, died from drug overdose and committed suicide. Her narrative is quite long but I will summarize it:
Forget the desire in actresses' eyes. It's all a lie. Trust me , I know. I did it for the lust of power and money. I never liked sex. I preferred to spend time with Jack Daniels than some of the studs I was paid to 'fake' it with. None of us liked doing porn. We hated it. We hated being touched by strangers, with foul smells and sweaty bodies, who care nothing about us.Some women hate it so much you can hear them vomiting in the bathroom between scenes.
But the porn industry wants YOU to think we porn actresses love sex. We were manipulated and coerced and even threatened. Some of us caught HIV from that coercion. I personally caught Herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. Another porn actress went home after a long night of numbing her pain and put a pistol to her head and pulled the trigger. Now she’s dead.
Most women who turn to porn acting as a money-making enterprise, probably didn’t grow up in healthy childhoods. Many actresses admit they’ve experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and neglect by parents. Some were raped by relatives and molested by neighbors.The same horrible violations we experienced then, we relive through as we perform our tricks for you in front of the camera. And we hate every minute of it. We’re traumatized little girls living on anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol acting out our pain in front of YOU who continue to abuse us. We use more and more drugs and alcohol. We live in constant fear of catching AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases.No condoms allowed. Besides worrying about catching diseases from porn sex, there are other harmful activities we engage in that are also very dangerous. Some of us have had physical tearing and damage to internal body parts.
We can't have healthy relationships cos our boyfriends get jealous and physically abuse us. So instead we marry our porn directors while others of us prefer lesbian relationships.
On our days off we walk around like zombies with a beer in one hand and a shot of whiskey in the other. We aren’t up to cleaning so we live in filth or hire a hand. We can't cook so we normally order foods.
For some of us who have children, we are the world's worst mothers.When clients come over for sex, we lock our children in their rooms and tell them to be quiet.
The truth is there IS NO fantasy in porn. It’s all a lie.The real truth is we porn actresses want to end the shame and trauma of our lives but we can’t do it alone. We need you men to fight for our freedom and give us back our honor. We need you to hold us in your strong arms while we sob tears over our deep wounds and begin to heal. We want you throw out our movies and help piece together the shattered fragments of our lives. We need you to pray for us the next fifteen years so God will hear and repair our ruined lives.
So don’t believe the lie anymore. Porn is nothing more than fake sex and lies on videotape. Trust me, I know.
Culled from CBN
*So tell me, who in his right mind would want his/her life to be enslaved by this lie?
But the porn industry wants YOU to think we porn actresses love sex. We were manipulated and coerced and even threatened. Some of us caught HIV from that coercion. I personally caught Herpes, a non-curable sexually transmitted disease. Another porn actress went home after a long night of numbing her pain and put a pistol to her head and pulled the trigger. Now she’s dead.
Most women who turn to porn acting as a money-making enterprise, probably didn’t grow up in healthy childhoods. Many actresses admit they’ve experienced sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal abuse and neglect by parents. Some were raped by relatives and molested by neighbors.The same horrible violations we experienced then, we relive through as we perform our tricks for you in front of the camera. And we hate every minute of it. We’re traumatized little girls living on anti-depressants, drugs and alcohol acting out our pain in front of YOU who continue to abuse us. We use more and more drugs and alcohol. We live in constant fear of catching AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases.No condoms allowed. Besides worrying about catching diseases from porn sex, there are other harmful activities we engage in that are also very dangerous. Some of us have had physical tearing and damage to internal body parts.
We can't have healthy relationships cos our boyfriends get jealous and physically abuse us. So instead we marry our porn directors while others of us prefer lesbian relationships.
For some of us who have children, we are the world's worst mothers.When clients come over for sex, we lock our children in their rooms and tell them to be quiet.
The truth is there IS NO fantasy in porn. It’s all a lie.The real truth is we porn actresses want to end the shame and trauma of our lives but we can’t do it alone. We need you men to fight for our freedom and give us back our honor. We need you to hold us in your strong arms while we sob tears over our deep wounds and begin to heal. We want you throw out our movies and help piece together the shattered fragments of our lives. We need you to pray for us the next fifteen years so God will hear and repair our ruined lives.
So don’t believe the lie anymore. Porn is nothing more than fake sex and lies on videotape. Trust me, I know.
Culled from CBN
*So tell me, who in his right mind would want his/her life to be enslaved by this lie?
Greatly revealing i must say....makes it all the more unattractive!
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