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I am addicted to masturbation - woman writes a pastor

Dear Pastor

I'm 22 years old. I've been reading your columns since I was 11. My mom died when I was eight.

I just came to the realization that I have an addiction, and I think it's because of what I experienced as a child.
I'm addicted to masturbation. As a child, I was molested by my stepbrother and my stepmom's nephew on separate occasions.


It all started when I was in grade seven. I remembered the nephew playing with my clitoris. It felt good, I must admit.
I started acting out at school and my form teacher took me aside and asked what was wrong with me, and I told her everything that was going on, and she took me to the guidance counsellor.

The guidance counsellor and I spoke and they did the necessary things to get me away from the boys. They weren't charged.

I moved to live with my mother's family and one day while I was showering using the hose, I bent down and I was spraying the water from the hose washing my vagina; it felt good and reminded me of the experience I had.

I stopped. Then another time I said to myself, 'I'm going to do it but this time I won't stop'. I think that was the first time I had an orgasm. My eyes rolled over.

It felt really great and from that day until today, I've never stopped playing with myself. I even got myself a sex toy, a vibrating bullet, and the most I can go without using it is two days.

I have a boyfriend. He lives overseas. He's not aware of my addiction. As a matter of fact, nobody knows.
I can't gain an orgasm through penetration alone, hence he pleases me by giving me oral. I'm ashamed of the habit and would like to stop. I think I need counselling.

I don't know if you could refer me to a counselor or counsel me yourself. I'm not rich but I'm willing to pay to get help. I'm also a bit confused as to what I want to do with my life.
I need your help. Please. I look forward to your response. Thank you.

I.S.

*What will you advise?

Comments

  1. Overcome it with a very strong will power. Identify first that you really dont want continue doing it.. then determine to stop. I stopped so anybody can.

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