My name is Wendy and I was born
in a small town in Virginia. I was in church every time the doors were open for
as far back as I can remember. As I got older, my father treated me differently than he did my sister
because he wanted a son. I remained painfully silent about being sexually
abused. Satan stole my innocence, and I was exposed to things that I
never should have been.
As a young child, I was attracted to women. My
silence allowed Satan to cultivate a huge lie that confused my sexual identity.
It was the birth of unnatural desires that would later manifest into full blown
homosexuality.
I was in so much pain and
confusion that one day I found some relief ... with alcohol. I suffered with
depression and often struggled with suicidal thoughts. I had my first consensual
sexual experience with a girl at the age of 15. This led me into one unhealthy
relationship after another.
All of those relationships ended
the same way; with shame, regret, hurt, unmet expectations, broken promises and
emotional pain. The lie I bought from Satan was that I just hadn't found the
right girl ... I just needed to find her.
One day a girl who I was trying
to hook up with invited me to church, and I strongly declined. She continued to
ask me ... So, I asked her, "If I agree to go with you to church ONE TIME,
AND I DO MEAN ONE TIME, will you please stop asking me to go to church with
you?" She agreed that if I would go one time that she would never ask me
again, so I went.
I remember it was in February 2007 on a Wednesday night. I
cried like a baby through worship and for the first time in my entire life, I
felt like I was HOME. I belonged.
In April 2007, I rededicated my life to Christ. As a small child, I had made
an emotional decision to be saved. I know today that I had never truly
surrendered my life to follow Christ.The Lord blessed me when I found a group of believers who struggle with same-sex attraction who truly loved me with no judgment and taught me the root causes of SSA. God's grace and His unfailing love is what set me free from the bondage of homosexuality. He gave me a way out. God has totally redeemed me and saved me from the chains of alcohol addiction and sexual sin.
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Thank God for saving you from that mess
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